Right, so today I had school of course. Same old story there. After school, I drove over to Beechwood to hang out with Kaitlin and Justine. Well, the Justine/Nick plan kind of fell through so Kaitlin and I just hung out at my house for about an hour and a half. Again, pretty much the same story. We went to Cameron's to watch movies and did so pretty well. I can say I had a decent time and I hope she did aswell. After dropping her off, my mood dropped sharply. I'm not sure why but at the moment I feel a noxious mix of sadness and anger. I fucking feel like stabbing something, writing, drawing, screaming, or just crying. What a nice range of activities yes? No. Fuck off. All of you.

Well she and I are no longer doing something today. That's a real downer. Um, I don't know what I want to do then. Maybe I'll go hang with some friends. Oh right, my friends don't exist. I don't know when she'll want to actually hang with me again. I don't know what to do. This sucks.

Fuck!

Okay, so I definitely fucked up big time. I said something really stupid to her in the middle of the night and really pissed her off. That sucks right? But it's definitely my fault. I'm so fucking dumb. There's no excuse even if I was tipsy. I should just leave her alone and let her take her time to forgive me. I don't blame her for being so pissed at me.

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Something's wrong. I can't put my finger on it. Something in the back of my head is making me paranoid. I can't feel content today. Nothing is working. I feel like I need to talk to someone. There is noone. I should go lock myself in my room and sleep for hours. I can't do that of course because I'm not tired at all. This sucks majorly. I just need someone...

A boring day topped with an even more boring night.

Yeah, I woke up at about 10:00 this morning and had to help my dad stain the fence. That's pretty much my day in a nut shell. I'm sick of being home. I want to go somewhere but there is no where or anyone to go to or hang out with. Sucks...

Holly and Jolly

Right so uh, here comes the cheerful banter. Hah, you wish. I've woken up in a mood that is difficult to voice. I'm sorry for being a needy son of a bitch. I just happen to enjoy talking to you. Sorry for that.

New Blog

Well, here it is...My very own blogspot. It is here that I shall write my thoughts and feeling down for future reference or for entertainment.